Cruel Intentions

Few things to start with

-It has been long I have posted.
-A lot has happened.
-I will need more than just this post to say what I want to say.

Few days back I saw "Cruel Intentions", the movie. I cannot explain but the movie had so strong an impact on me that I just can'tseem to forget Ryan Philippe in his blue shirt, and BS Symphony and Sarah Michelle Geller, I don't care she deserved an academy or not but I KNOW she was awesome. Top class acting and sophisticated execution with a tragic end, makes this movie one of a kind.

"Cause it's a bitter sweet symphony this life... Trying to make ends meet, you're a slave to the money then you die." - The Verve Bitter Sweet Symphony.
The movie ends on this note and the music has left an indelible mark.
An advice: Do not watch CI 2, its shoddy as compared to the original.

The last week was movie week. I had marathon movie sessions and watched many movies. Though I am yet to watch Rang De Basanti and friends tell me its great. I surely would love to talk about the other movies I saw.

The Butterfly Effect:The lead actor suffers from the same mental condition which brought death to his dad. The mental condition is such that actually allows him to traverse to multiple worlds through his ability to change the past. Unconvincing but good.

Memento:A puzzling movie on a man suffering from short term memory loss and looking for the man who murdered(?) his wife.

Closer: Fidelity is not easy but love is not shallow. This movie is about dysfunctional relationships and a lesson to all those who try to find love in a stranger. Needless to say Natalie Portman is a Goddess:)

As I promised, more later.

CBS Denmark

Ok here it is guys, a piece of good news. Its rejuvenating to share it

"I am going to Copenhagen Business School, Denmark for the International Student Exchange Programme in Term 5(Oct-Dec 2006) and I feel on the top of the world."

Its an achievement and I know it. It is also crucial for me to try to get an internship once I reach there which will finance me Eurotrip.

Talkin about Eurotrip, my intentions of going to Europe are very noble, contrary to what you may at once perceive. I had always wanted to go abroad, so much that I ensured that I did a French course at Alliance Francaise de Ahmedabad before joining MDI, back in May 2005.

Now coming to the piece of bad news, we have our term 2 ET next week, and it kind fails to touch me now. Which is nice, cause I am succeeding in being indifferent to my CG(irony cause it played a decent role in ensuring my CBS selection).

There are somethings you would have to keep in doing till you touch the next level of the system. Its like the Matrix. Where there are rules, rules which are meant to be broken, twisted and respected as per the case may be. In my case, I would continue to respect the rules and I can NEVER COMPROMISE ON MY INNER VOICE, and that remains the fact. In short this means that I keep gettin my grades, and I will keep devising ways to break myself out of the mould, redefine myself everyday and keep doing new things which make me a better person.

Rise & Rise so High that you can redefine the rules.

Time for Change

Long time no post. Our midterms are over and that leaves me with nothing much to do. There is nothing new about that though.

The sad part is that I do not have much to discuss either. Although all these days made me realize one thing, that parties could become meaningless too after a certain point. And that includes the numerous dance parties we have here on campus. An expensive affair but recently the MU(read marginal utility) seems to just inch towards the negative. The DJ sucks, agreed that 3-4 drinks ensure you don't notice anyway. But seriously, I am sick of the repetitive songs.

I am losing reasons for that eternal smile to stay on my face. Deep inside I know that this is probably the best phase of my or should I say "our" lives. But there is something inherently wrong, with ME.

Reminds me of the seven sins. Sloth I remember is one of them.

People hate it when I use the word "Value add", but I think it makes a lot of sense in a B-school. The issue here is not whether just studying hard will take you places. I think its studying and imagining how you can relate it to the real world. Something teachers, mentors, guides have always told me all these years and I never could comprehend the true meaning of what they meant. It sinks in today and I am glad.

Whatever I do here from now on, will focus on real learning and thats a promise I have made to myself. Academically I don't know, I am trying to avoid the greed of good grades. This greed in any case originated from a sense of insecurity at the first place than achievement itself. This is the greed that makes many of us study all these years.

During my years in VJTI, all I was doing was struggling to ensure my 60% which will ensure placements for me. So there were so many times when I was not interested in so many subjects, I still managed to do well getting my 1st class. I was as its said playing "not to lose".

The bottomline, a 1st class gives you a good face a good name, I think the true "value add" was close to zilch. That it can also be blames to the irrelevance of the engineering curriculum is something I would not delve into.

So getting a 1st class is similar to gettin a CG of 7 here, a passport to good placments. Though, this is a decent measure of a performer. Reality, it misses the complete picture.I strongly feel people who end up doing well have strong soft skills/people skills and possess an inherent knack of applying concepts real time That is how they really differentitate themselves from the herd.

Leaders though are of a different metal altogether. I think anyone who has the courage to follow his heart can be and is a leader. It doesn't matter people follow you or not, one should be convinced enough. Success is your own reference point. I think that way you differentiate yourselves from the very beginning.
Its no rocket science. Its pure passion at play, passion to create and the passion to own. Passion to be a real changemaster.


Go ahead
Create something new
Change the world

I will try.

Think Twice before you utter the 'H' Word

To all sad losers who don't think twice before using the traditional H word:

Be it in class, on social occasions, trips, parties, fests, meetings we Mandevians often come across a certain H word, which sounds more like donkey fart. I really haven't understood the pleasure of saying the word(as I have tried saying it).

It is so much a part of what Mandevians do, crib and cry, we show zilch creativity as all we end up saying to deal with anything is belch, "Harrrr...",it goes.Big losers, fartmasters!!

Bigmouths -- try doing something meaningful & positive before you H*** someone. I know you are so touchy, you would cry if you heard a cracker go off, forget even having the basic etiquette of tolerance for others opinions(for all those who loved saying it in class and didnt have the guts to compete in better ways)!

Grow up you lousy suckers(with special reference to the guys who really do a good H*** version) !

Jerry Maguire!

"You had me at Hello..."..remember this dialogue?

True, I just watched JM and I must say I regret missing watching it all these years. And no I am not joking when I say I think the movie is simply awesome. And it might just find its way to my favorites. The most adorable scene is when then Dorothy(Renee Zellweger) confronts Jerry(Tom C.) with their break-up news bit- that scene was heartmelting.

The dialogues still ring in my years. I am planning to have my own mission statement like Jerry had. I think when he can do it 35, I might very well do it in 23.

"Be yourself"- Easier said than done, this movie was a revelation.

The final word, "If this(your heart) is empty this(your head) doesn't matter"

Illumina and Being Drunk!

We were talkin about the stall. And yes you guessed it right, we made a profit of Rs.200 but since we lost Shobhit's furniture which might just be valued a little higher than my profit, you may very well call it a breakeven.

Our dean doesn't believe and many else didn't . They think its cakewalk, making money! Not that other people didn't make money. Its just that we had too many games on the stall and to tell ya frankly it was good fun too.

Nayaar was alive with all his enthusiasm. Pranav was also there, though his heart was in Macroeconomic fart. Ronnie was playful as ever but girls were a source of distraction.

I was shouting myself out, in any case I liked my job of shouting out numbers which didn't mean anything to me. About the event, I had no clue because I didnt have time to make important calls and have dinner. We packed off at 2130 sometime and then headed for the party which was a pain for all near and dear as I was drunk.

"Slow and steady is the cardinal rule for drinking." Won't forget that the next time. PG had to suffer the fate of my drunken merrymaking. I am embarassed already.

Macroeconomic quiz again today in the afternoon and history has the habit of repeating itself. I better get to study now, we have an exam man!!(old habits die hard;)

Losing a friend!

Isnt it beautiful, how friendships begin and how a few times, they last long, or forever. But is that all that happens?

The sad part is when we lose friends.

I see it as a problem of expectations and reality. People who dream a lot, have high expectations from about absolutely anything and everything in life. People who have a strong sense of right and wrong, are more often than not, subject to this phase. Some would like to rephrase it as ego. I would phrase it as a natural conflict of interests in two individuals.

No two people are alike. So tolerance plays a major role in good and lasting friendships. Patience is a virtue, they say, but I see it more in terms of payoff. If a friend is really a close one, people are willing to sacrifice a lot, indulge in tradeoff because of their expectation of a benefit ultimately. This may be harsh to few a but it is true.

Many lose friends, but in my case, losing good friends has been the most painful. I think its got to do with the fact that I tend to form strong one-to-one relationships which come with high maintenance. I must confess I don't come out clean in this.

Anyways, the point of all this talk is I am losing a friend, a good friend, and its painful, and talking about it makes it easier on me. It doesn't make sense to see why this has to happen, but more importantly, I discover again, good friends are a hard find.

Airtel Woes!

From the time I have come to Delhi, I have realized that if there is this singlemost entity who has been the central fixture in my life in the last few months, it has to be...no not my girlfriends, you pigheads, its Airtel.

There has not been a day that has passed without my service provider spamming me incessantly with messages ranging on why I should recharge my cell phone, to what ringtones should i download, and dial a tune, & crap infinitum.

Get a life you SHITTY SPAMMERS and give me mine. Don't make me feel lonelier than I already am. I was hoping that Vodaphone would have you bought you over but perhaps Sarin has to hone up his spamming skills, to be good enough for you guys.

I am hoping that somebody spam Sunil Mittal's mailbox! That would give me some joy.

Sleeping!!

Why does anyone love sleeping so much? I think sometimes, is it Delhi Winter or is it me, or its just that our professors choose to be so boring. I am yet to find a good reason why I spend my days part hallucinating and partly figuring out what I am supposed to do now!
...yawn...!

We have Illumina tomorrow, we have a game stall to put up. I want to make some money tomorrow. Nayyar's enthusiasm is infectious but I cannot still let go of the fact that out MTs begin 7th, not that I will be doing something about it. But as you guys already might have guessed, i look for reasons to remain depressed and trust me I have plenty.

My girlfriend just fought with me, because I don't call her for days. She doesnt believe when I say that i could not find time. Someone has to tell her, I am in a B-school, where you don't actually realize that it has been DAYS since you had last talked to people.

She doesn't realize time is a relative commodity, I say. Watchin 5 movies always appears lesser than Mr. JPS Dahiya's macroeconomic fart for 90 minutes(my latest quiz reads 4.5 on 20). Similarly for her its 5 days but for me if thats one day, can I help it? One day is not too much a time and girlfriends should know that.

Being academically good hasn't helped anyone. You need that just to earn your bread. But the rule of the world is that there are no rules. People tell me, its the process of growth-- u know in a B-school. Its the process one should trust.All bull... why should i trust the process if i can' t learn to apply what I trust, there and then when I just learnt it. And when I can't apply and check that what I just learnt was so true, whats the need of classrooms. Either ways, we are as good as as storage drives, they just grow larger and larger, just to make sure that you can store one piece of shitty software or a movie on it u will eitherways never need. Long term planning my ass, it only makes sure that you make money, when you won't have the time to be able to spend it.

When is the right time to spend money, need i answer that, its NOW because I am 23 and have enough energy and enthusiasm to enjoy what life has to offer. The sad part is that I am still unemployed, people call me a student , but i prefer unemployed. Thats one more reason i choose to remain depressed.

What are we turning to , don't know and planning my future isn't important anyways. What is the point in thinking in future if the present isn't happening enough.

There is room for inspiration. And an average ordinary individual like me needs it. Isnt that the tonic for success? Well that might be just the only thing I trust.

I am too tired and this post is too boring. I will catch up with you ..later!!

Ronnie Gets Placed!!

The only happening news for our group this week was Ronnie getting placed in QAI.He is the last guy in our group to get placed. For those who don't know what is QAI, go here http://www.qaiindia.com/index.htm

The update
Prateek Nayar going to Sharaf Retail Dubai, and working on a Red Bull Project
Puneet Rai, checking the viablity and marketing a software for Wipro which hacks into user accounts(read Prateek) for confidential access to various project(read Red Bull)
Pranav Pathak selling medicines to old women suffering from Piles at Eli Lilly
Ronnie Kher, setting new benchmarks and ascertaining new ways of customer satisfaction at QAI

jokes apart
Congrats to Rons! Happy for you buds....!

Bad Day at Work!

"Am i sounding too negative? Who are my target audience.Is the content alright?"
These were the concerns i had when i thought about blogging. And trust me these are the concerns everyone has when they blog.

The way out is that they turn their blog into a Online newspaper, i do not wish to fall into that trap as of now.

I am better off venting myself out on an online diary.

There I go, I am such an idiot. I have a tough time sayin no to people. May be it comes at the cost of trying to be the nice person. Or may be its my values, which instils in me fear to be an individual. Which i think is what matters ultimately.

As it goes "those who matter dont mind you, and those who mind dont matter"

For all you guys who cant say no and want that image. Avoid! avoid the situation which makes you do something that you dont want to to do. Learn to RUN.You will do well in life.

For those who dont need that. Be yourself! Life may not be that kind though! It comes at a cost obviously.

Mouthfarter & FatAss

U know what pisses me off. Poor listeners. But add to that fact that the they are in the group you are in adds to your misery.

May be i should just SHOUT....aaarghh

Or maybe i should just imagine them making out:)
that is more fun anytime..